again*

once again she has a sudden urge to write, to scream, to shout and to breathe.. she arrives home and once again closes from the world in her little corner, a place where nobody sees her, where nobody can touch her or hurt her. she remembers what it was like to fall in love, she remebers trying to please and solve everybody elses problems and make sure the world was filled with smiles and stars, and hearts and dots and any type of pattern she could ever think of... this makes her unique and helps her hide from the cruelty that makes her sick and want to die, that makes her think she shouldn't have been born in the 80's but that she belongs to the middle ages, or even the era where there existed no rules, no laws, nothing to owe to anybody. there was just freedom and self-sufficiency and nothing to be scared of beacuse the beasts where your friends and they would never harm you, they would just protect you..
and she wishes she could go back to that body that really belongs to her, beacause right now she does not belong to her blue eyes and her freckled skin.

her soul is lost today *

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J-v2G802ok4&feature=fvw